Friday, April 30, 2010

I wanna fall asleep in her arms like this every single night.
I wanna go to sleep knowing that she'll be the first person I see when I open my eyes in the morning.
I wanna wake up and see her watching me sleep.
I wanna see us coming back to the same home everyday.

I love the way she says "I love you".

♥ disguised at { 9:39 PM }

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Okay, it's final. I'm gonna have a birthday party this year.

Check those cakes out, they're hugeass cakes (except for the last one) and is totally impossible for anyone to do anything close to that for me.

Plus, it's probably gonna cost a bomb (I believe Daddy will make this an exception for me. Haha)

Go google cake boss, you'll be amazed.

I want a nice-looking and a nice-tasting cake. How how how!

Well, if I get an ordinary cake this year then my 21st birthday had better be BIGtime!

I think... I'll leave these for next time.

I've got my license to worry about first, I'm gonna make sure I pass every single driving test before the end of this year. Watch me, honnaye!

♥ disguised at { 12:57 AM }

Monday, April 26, 2010

I wished my life was like a Polly Pocket.

I can choose how I want my house to look like.

I can choose the people whom I want to live with and kick the others out to another Polly Pocket house.

I can choose when is day and when is night.

Best of all, I can manage my own life. I can control all that's happening.

Nobody is gonna tell me what to do.

Nobody is gonna stop me from doing what I want to do.

I think I want Polly Pockets for my birthday this year.

No, stop laughing. I'm fucking serious.

PFFFFTTTT, all you "I-think-I'm-too-cool-and-matured-for-Polly-Pockets" people.

Polly Pockets are for people above 4 years old.

Well, I'm 19 so I'm allowed, too bad!

♥ disguised at { 11:31 AM }

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Just for a night, I bowed my head and closed my eyes. It's been awhile.

I thanked God for you, for all that you've done for me and for the person you are to me.

He listened.

GOD LOVES GAYS!!! Hahahaha.

♥ disguised at { 1:57 PM }

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Tonight you're mine completely,

You give your love so sweetly,

Tonight the light of love is in your eyes,

But will you love me tomorrow?

Is this a lasting treasure,

Or just a moment's pleasure,

Can I believe the magic of your sighs,

Will you still love me tomorrow?

Tonight with words unspoken,

You said that I'm the only one,

But will my heart be broken,

When the night meets the morning sun.

I'd like to know that your love,
Is love I can be sure of,
So tell me now and I won't ask again,
Will you still love me tomorrow?

Today's the 20th Anniversary of Hubble Telescope Launch by NASA.
I think that just made me sound smarter.
But whatever is a Hubble Telescope? I'm not an astronomer, so who cares.
And by the way, I got that information from google's front page. HAHAHA.
First week of school passed really quickly, doesn't even feel like a proper school semester.
The modules seem fine, Forensics is the funnest of the whole lot. I kinda lost Proteomics and Genomics along the way.
Home electricity is like... Electrifying? WHAHAHAHAHA. Funnaye! No, it's frecking boring and retarded.
It's gonna be a short 4 months and I'm out of the damn school and doing whatever I feel like.
Okay, I'm gonna plan and think about my birthday now.
Time is passing at the speed of light, it's unbelievable how another year just passed like that.
Well, I like it this way thought cuz soon I'm gonna be fucking 'Two-One'!
And you know what? I'm gonna be a fucking rebel, I'm gonna be a wildcat, I'm gonna be a loanshark! HAHAHAHAHA. Watch me roll babeh!
I'm gonna paint black nails now. Toodles noodles (WTF!).

Ps. BB, I was like semi-concious when you called last night. Hahaha. Call me later and remind me what I said cuz there's only one thing I remembered saying over and over and over again- I'm very very happy. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I sounded like some drunkard but no, I knew what I was saying then ok. Love you like hell, and that's not a thinking will actually change over time. Hurr hurr. I'm serious. TTYL!

♥ disguised at { 11:48 AM }

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I go to bed happy and satisfied knowing that when the sun rises the next day, I'm still loved by her.

This's the best thing life ever offered me with.

♥ disguised at { 9:21 PM }

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

To many this video will make minimal sense, if not no sense at all.
But I found this in my phone, I forgot I had it in there amongst the many that I'm too lazy to upload.
It made me unspeakably happy :-D
Ask for no explanation, it's that simple.

For all that was said yesterday baby, this Jac that you see in this video is still gonna be me 10 years, 20 years, 30 years, 40, 50, 60... and nothing's ever gonna change.
I'm still gonna be the one who's totally head over heels for you,
the one who iss always so happy when you're around her even if you're not saying anything,
the one whose day you always make even if she's upset over something lame,
the one who's so damn frecking bitchy but you always get her under control,
the one whom you know inside out and every single inch of me,
the one who sometimes put you in a fix but you still understand and know what she wants at the end of the day,
the one who's a gigantic crybaby but you never gave up comforting her,
the one whom you never fail to give proper guidance and help to,
the one who's always so jealous of people getting too close to you cuz you're way too precious to her,
the one who's so damn attached to you, but at the same time it's not becoming a habit. Habits are bad!
the one who always feel safe, secure, loved and warm with you around,
the one who loves you the way she never did to anyone before and she'll never stop, the one who knows that she don't need anyone else cuz in her freaking huge eyes (hahaha, I just had to say something random, cuz this's getting to emotional) you're already the best and nobody is ever gonna replace you, nobody is ever gonna own the same place in her heart as you do. No one.
You're more than a precious gem to me, baby.
I've been loving you the same in every single way since day one, never have I doubted you for a second and never have I regretted placing my heart onto those hands of yours.
Thank you for all that you've provided me with, you've done alot (and I really mean Eh-Elle-Oh-Tee) for me and I'm really really appreciative for it.
This is the farthest I can go in putting all I have been wanting to say and all that I've been feeling, in words.
Now, you get how ginormously important a person you are in my minute life? Hah.
Ngor "Oinkkkk" Lei Ho Ho Dor, baby ponts ♥

♥ disguised at { 10:01 PM }

Monday, April 19, 2010

Awwwwww... I know right. Super sweet stuff.

I'll go check if my pencil and eraser are talking to one another now. HAHAH.

Nope, they're not.

School reopened today but it didn't feel any different from the holidays.

We're all hiding in our "bomb shelter" where we hear no drum beats from the stupid Baracuda Batucada, where we don't have to squeeze amongst sweaty people, where we don't have to be in the midst of all the noise, mess and confusion happening on the first school year of 2010.

Last 5 months, I'm constantly reminding myself.

Let's make a GPA 2.8 happen this sem! Way to go, jac!

I'm gonna have some Heaven&Earth Ice Apple Tea now.

It's better than Ice Lemon Tea already, please. Jolene, don't comment on this. Thanks. Hahahaha.

I'm growing fatter like a ticking bomb ready to explode. (I see no link in that statement)

BB's not gonna be able to carry me anymore soon...

C'mon let's work it all out babeh!

ps. I'm so taking your whole Wednesdays Miss Pehkk Xiu Fern! Read this carefully! Actually I might as well just take your whole life luh ok.
You know what I mean, young lady.
Listen to me baby, uh huh uh huh... ;-)

♥ disguised at { 6:09 PM }

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Tell me you'll make that dream come true.

School starts tomorrow and I think I'm gonna cry like I did on the first day of Primary 1.

Somebody's not gonna be in school everyday except for Wednesdays and that's so not helping.

Great, I'm gonna be a loner.

8am on Monday, 5 hours of Proteomics lab. What the fuckity freck!

Let's take some comfort in the fact that I'm gonna breathe Clementi air on a daily basis for just 5 more months.

Life after that will be more than perfect. It's gonna be awesome.

I think there's something wrong with me, I'm like constantly feeling tired. I'm gonna take a nap now.

♥ disguised at { 4:24 PM }

Saturday, April 17, 2010

I'm tired.

♥ disguised at { 5:16 PM }

Thursday, April 15, 2010

-Trying real hard not to scream-

I'm such a sucker for this face. Not mine, hers.

Elvis eyebrows much!

It makes my heart skip a beat.

It makes the hair at the back of my neck stand up.

It makes my leg soft like stupid agar I make in lab.

It makes me grin like a fool.

It makes me feel like skipping around the room like a retard.

It makes me feel so fucking in love.

It makes me feel like kissing you dead!

♥ disguised at { 10:12 PM }

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

I want out from this place, now.

It hurts so fucking badly when all your chances in life is always being jeopardized by the same people over and over and over again.

It hurts so fucking badly when people expect you to be an imaginary character they themselves were unable to be.

It hurts so fucking badly when people start runining your life just because they don't/ didn't have one.

It hurts so fucking badly when people think that they're doing you a favour, but it turns out to be that they're the cause of your misery.

It hurts so fucking badly when people make you break your promises just to cater to their wants, satisfaction and joy.

It hurts so fucking badly when people who are so damn close to you are just not able to accept you for who you are and ends up being in denial.

It hurts so fucking badly to know that when it's time to fly, the mother bird broke her baby's wings so that it'll always be by her side and never be able to learn how to fend for itself.

You forgave your past but you see your future going down the same road.

It's people being treated like me, who ends up killing themselves.

Baby, reassure me. Tell me you'll always be there and that you'll love me and only me till the day your heart stops beating, please. Promise me you'll take me away from all of this, in 2 years time. Somewhere nobody will disturb us, nobody will stop us, nobody will tell us what to do, nobody will point their fingers at us, nobody will judge us. This is how much I want it and this is how much I love you, baby ponts.

♥ disguised at { 7:46 PM }

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

They've been acting like they understood.
Well, maybe they tried but not enough.

♥ disguised at { 12:55 PM }

Monday, April 12, 2010

But can you feel this magic in the air?

It must have been the way you kissed me

Fell in love when I saw you standing there

It must have been the way

Today was a fairytale

1000 words literature review and only 227 down.
I know right, crazy!
I've still got... (do the math) number of words left.
But but but I have 2 more days to do it and believe it or not I'm totally staying at home to do my homework tomorrow. FTW.
Anyway, I really want the stupid Justin Bieber song here but I kinda realise that it's gonna mess this entire blog up cuz there's another song playing here at the mo.
We'll wait till I have enough post to push the previous song to the next page before I start embedding another code.
Let's do homework now. Hastalavista Babeh!
Ok let's admit it, I think I'm excited enough to be posting this cuz someone's getting her you-know-what tomorrow. Hurr hurr. And no, it's not her PERIOD! Yes B, damn right I am! But please keep the hair alive for me ;-)

♥ disguised at { 10:01 PM }

Friday, April 09, 2010

The second I spoke of it, I thought I felt something on my skin.

There was nothing.

The second I came face to face with it, I thought I felt a sense of self-pity and waste.

Still, there was nothing.

I swore never to get back on that path ever again.

That, it's just so hard to relate to now.

As cliche as it may sound- It's like I was in one hell of a maze and I've finally felt my way out and now I'm this close to the end of the whole labyrinth.
That's just really vague though.

♥ disguised at { 9:45 PM }

Thursday, April 08, 2010

I find that "trying-to-look-zen" chinese word behind is 10 times more distracting than my "I'm-so-fucking-sick-and-bored-of-work-let's-do-something-dumb" face.
I'm taking forever to get my assignment done. FML.
Let's do a quiz now...
If I were a month, I’d be December
If I were a day of the week, I’d be Saturday
If I were a time of day, I’d be 12pm
If I were a planet, I’d be Earth
If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Dolphin
If I were a direction, I’d be West (Duh right, Jolene! HAHA)
If I were a piece of furniture,I’d be a couch
If I were a historical figure, I’d be Hitler (HAHA) Nah, I'll be Albert Einstein
If I were a liquid, I’d be apple juice
If I were a gemstone, I’d be a sapphire
If I were a tree, I’d be a christmas tree (Wait, there's such thing right?)
If I were a tool, I’d be a screw (No metaphore intended)
If I were a flower, I’d be a forget-me-not flower
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be spring
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Gibson Les Paul
If I were a color, I’d be fuchsia
If I were an emotion, I’d be euphoric
If I were a fruit, I’d be a cherry
If I were a sound, I’d be a wave (Reason why I want a house by the sea)
If I were an element, I’d be water
If I were a car, I’d be a super old school Chevrolet Impala
If I were a food, I’d be FISH! (Whichever, whatever. Just love it.)
If I were a place, I’d be Hollywood Boulevard (Oh, LT 619 too *winks*)
If I were a material, I’d be suede
If I were a taste, I’d be sweet
If I were a scent, I’d be berry
If I were an object, I’d be a phone
If I were a body part, I’d be the finger (HOHOHO!)
If I were a facial expression, I’d be a smile
If I were a movie, I'd be The notebook by Nicholas Sparks
If I were a TV serial, I'd be The L word (Pffffft! Dumb question!)
If I were a song, I’d be Baby by Justin Bieber ft Ludacris
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be Christian Louboutin heels

Ok, I'm done.
Leaving the work for tomorrow, I'm such a procrastinator.
I'm too tired to even sing to the song playing on my iTunes- Don't stop believing by the Glee Cast.
And did I mention, Glee is currently the best show in town.
I'm putting it under the same category as Greys anatomy, Ghost whisperer, Ugly Betty, Previledge and all my Disney channel shows.
Go check it out if you have absolutely no idea what on Earth I'm blabbing about.
Goodnight, peace out!

♥ disguised at { 2:30 PM }

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

One day, I want to be walking down that isle filled with pretty fairy-like dresses, realise I like them all and end up buying everything off the shelf.
I'll buy some for my mother, some for my sister, some for my wife and some for my daughter.
Then, I'll turn around and walk back down the isle feeling like I own the world.

That's just the one thing on my bucket list.

I'm not naive or ignorant, just simple. That simple.

I need a short session with what I've been missing for months.
It's not an addiction neither is it an escape, it's just therapy.

♥ disguised at { 9:30 PM }

Monday, April 05, 2010

Ooooooh... FATHER!!!!!!
If anyone wanna know ask me when you see me.
I'm all prepared with my suitcase. HAHAHAHA.

♥ disguised at { 9:32 PM }

Saturday, April 03, 2010

I never understood smokers.
Oh wait, I think I do now.
I never understood drinkers.
But then again, I think I do now.
My body feels like killing itself.
Don't be so ready to judge me, I'm just making a statement.

♥ disguised at { 2:25 AM }

Start of year number T-W-O, babeh!
It's been one hell of a mindblowing year.
I'm totally looking forward to what the next has got to offer.
It's gonna be the same but better and funner, I just fucking know it!
Baby ponts, I love you with every single bit of my dying arms, balding head and bushing eyebrows :-*

♥ disguised at { 1:04 AM }

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Heart on my sleeve, vulnerable to bleed.

♥ disguised at { 11:18 PM }