Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I am confident but I still have my moments
Baby,thats just me
I'm not a supermodel, I still eat mcdonalds
Baby,thats just me
Well some may say I need to be afraid of losing everything,
because of where I had my start and where i made my name
Well everything's the same in the la la land machine, machine, ma-chine

♥ disguised at { 10:04 PM }

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

They come and go but they dont know that you are my beautiful
And I try to come closer with you
But they all say we won't make it true
I can't stop the rain from falling
Can't stop my heart from calling you

Yes, and check all that innocent faces out!

Especially the fourth one from the last row. Omg, who the hell is that?!?

Each face depicts a story of it's own.

And as time passes I see how those looks change, how tired they become.
As I looked closer, it felt as though I could tell how each of our future will be.

What we are today is the works of yesterday.

I turned and looked into the mirror beside me and for a moment I wasn't sure if I liked what I saw.

But a grin was plastered across that face and I guess that was enough to show what she was feeling inside.

For now she's convinced that she's satisfied, and she'll not trade anything even for the world.

This is the little that she has. Please don't let her lose it.

♥ disguised at { 8:06 PM }

Monday, April 27, 2009

"See how they fly like Lucy in the sky

See how they run

Sitting in an English garden waiting for the Sun

If the Sun don't come you get a tan

From standing in the English rain"

Today is monday. Lab practicals didn't treat me that nicely, but the day went on pretty fine.

It seems like when it reaches a certain hour of the day, my head starts churnning out nonsensical rubbish on it's own.

It gets crappy.

I heard a story today, it wasn't something new but somehow it felt as though it was the first time.

It was sad, 'depressing' would be too much of an over-statement.

Predictable wasn't it?

♥ disguised at { 10:46 PM }

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Guilt filled eyes met.

With a desire to befriend but pride contact.

When the eyes met.

I knew we had a conversation that was never said.

Only 3 school days next week. I can never be happier.
The thought of having lab early in the morning on the first day of the week is sucking up every little ounce of joy that exist in me.
Someone shoot me dead, please just do it.
I don't like school. I mean, the lectures and practicals are the huge-est problem.
They're killing me softly.
As of right now, I'm not making any sense so I should just cut the crap and get over it.
But lessons are really disgustingly torturous.
Starry Starry Night combine practice last night was a let down, I was a let down.
But I guess today's dance prac made up for it. Came up with pretty decent stuff, sweeeeet!
At this moment I feel that I need to be a little less angsty and get out of here before I blow this computer up into a million pieces.

♥ disguised at { 11:25 PM }

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Oh, sweetheart

Put the bottle down

You've got

Too much talent

I see you

Through those

Bloodshot eyes

There's a cure

You've found it

Too much ranting on and on about school for the past 5 days, so I'll skip that part for now.

I'm pretty much worn out and I'm getting a little frustrated at almost EVERYTHING.

It's good that tomorrow's Saturday cuz Starry Starry Night practice is always fun in the bigass sun!

For a moment, I feel pathetic. Don't bother asking.

♥ disguised at { 11:58 PM }

Sunday, April 19, 2009

School's starting in less than 24 hours and I don't know why but I'm getting really scared for some reason.

I'm getting really tensed and moody.

The usual drama one day before school starts.

It always happens, eversince I started going to school when I was 4.

I don't want school to start but at the same time I want school to start.

Omg, I sound like a kindergarten kid whinning.

I probably just need my daily dose of Diney channel to calm me down.

This is driving my nerves crazy! I am so so so scared.

♥ disguised at { 9:05 PM }

Last night was good, today was good, Starry Night practice was good, the company was good.
What more can I ask for right? Oh yeah, for everyday to be the same.

Babe,
You said you'll not be able to sleep till you see this post and so here's one for you, and only you.
I don't know where and how to start this cuz whatever I want to say have all been said before, but I'll still repeat myself for you and your eyes to feast on and be happy.
Firstly, I could never thank you enough for being who you are and always having to put up with my teeny weeny "freedom" that my" oh-so- understanding" parents gives me. I'll be more than happy if I could spend more time with you, just so you know.
Secondly, I hope nobody (especially that HUGE bugger) will ever be a threat and jeopardise this relationship cuz being where I am today is what I've always wanted and neither am I going to regret any of these in my whole big fat entire life.
Thirdly, sometimes it does scare me when I think about what might happen to us in the future but then again as i said, this is the present and I can never imagine myself being with someone else better. Not now, not tomorrow, maybe never ever ever ever ever.
And lastly, to end this all- I love you as much as I love myself even if you look like a monk with no hair. Hahah. I'll wait for the next time you can DO THE HAIRFLIP with me!!!
Kissy Cissy!
Now you can go to bed in peace. Goodnight, sleep tight, don't let bedbugs bite!

♥ disguised at { 12:21 AM }

Thursday, April 16, 2009

It's a thief in the night,

To come and grab you.

It can creep up inside you,

And consume you.

A disease of the mind,

It can control you.

It's too close for comfort.

5 movies in a week!

Pretty sweet stuff.

Oh, but I thought that Fast and Furious 4 was not that great afterall.

Tokyo Drift was wayyyyy better. Nonetheless, there're quite a handful of sizzling cast this time round. Haha.

Anyway, result show in 45 mins and I'm not a single crap-bit worried cuz I know that ADAM LAMBERT is so gonna get through.

He's gonna win everyone handsdown man.

Go ADAM! Make our "industry" proud!!! Ahahahahahah.

♥ disguised at { 9:40 PM }

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

My spinning head sings "Stop, just stop."
Cause what used to calm me down,
Just rips my life to ribbons now.

I'm so so so tired, my eyes are about to close and I feel like I'm gonna slide off the chair any minute.

American Idol in 2 hours and the whole wide world should know who I'm rooting for.
Yes, you've got it right... It's none other than the fabulously magnificent ADAM LAMBERT!!!
He's just.... pssssssssss HOT HOT HOT!
Well, better than that crabby Clay Aiken that I went totally gaga over a million years ago.
Everyone repeat after me- "Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww"
Hahah. VOTE FOR ADAM!!!

I'm getting out of here before I explode.

♥ disguised at { 8:14 PM }

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

So go on, love.
Leave while there's still hope for escape,
Got to take what you can these days.
There's so much ahead,
So much regret.

Maybe keeping it superficial would have been a whole lot better cuz then it'll probably be much easier for me in time to come.
It feels like probation, it feels like hell.
I don't like that. I don't like talking about it, much less thinking about it.
I like it this way. And I want it this way, forever.

♥ disguised at { 10:26 PM }