Friday, August 29, 2008

In about 7 hours, we'll be making our way to the airport to send sis off.
Brisbane, here she comes!!! I can't be any happier. Hahaha.
Ok fine, i'll miss her just a teeny weeny bit and maybe a little worried when she's away.
Like the people she's gonna meet and stuff. People are unpredictable! Hah.
Whatever it is, she better get me something man.
Anyway, don't think i'll be going to the airport cuz i don't wish to see some people.
They'll probably just make a big hooha out of my presence.
So i guess daddy's gonna drop me at jolenes place. Yayee :)
It's been some time since we had a heart to heart talk.
Oh wells, i'll make this short and clear- The past few day's been not-so-good!
I don't know why but, something's just not right.
I shouldn't be feeling this way but disappointment keeps hitting at me. Damn it.
This calls for a session with the "guru". HAH!

Checkmate on my shoulder, i'm tired of this win or lose

as perfect and simple as it looks.
in life, its never really like that.
life is never perfect for us..
things go wrong when they seem so right,
and sometimes even so right when everything seems wrong.
pictures do speak a thousand words.
but are they the truth or just lies?
some people say things but mean another.
others are those that are worth to keep and cherish.
we always hope for better things,
but like they say: the grass is never greener on the other side.
we just have to tolerate the imperfections in life.
then, thats where everything is perfect.
just perfect..

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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Yesterday, today, tomorrow. Everyday's the same for me.
I feel like my brains and joints are getting rusty already, i'm bored stiff!
All i ever do is eat, sleep, watch tv, shop, use the com, play the piano/ guitar and do absolutely nothing else.
Oh yeah! I read too, i'm a good girl ok. It helps me kill time.
I sorta like reading now. Something i never liked doing in the past. Haha.
Finished "keep faith" by jodi picoult. Gotta go hunt for another book!
Till then, someone please give me something to do.
Just give me a job in a farm and grow some crappy crops. I'll do it happily. Hah.
Ok, i'm gonna be like super random now but THE WEATHER IS AWESOME!
The sky is so dark and gloomy, it's raining like there's no tomorrow.
It's damn cold but too bad, it's not snowing.
Niceeee :)
Mom's watching "the price is right" now and she's getting all excited for one of the contestant who has the same name as her -.-
I've got a kewl mummy!
She's gonna get me whatever i want when sis goes to brisbane, that's what she said.
So she better be a woman of her word! Hahaha.
I'll go eat and watch tv with mom now...

I'll be lying if i said no

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Monday, August 25, 2008

I'm the bored-est person alive right now, i swear.
There's seriously nothing to do.
Ever since i was awake at like 10am, i've been on the com until now.
But neopets is pretty fun! Hahahahaha. Haven't played that in years and years and years.
Yes, deprived childhood! Heh.
Kinda managed to get the whole series of some show, like finally! Yipeeee.
It took me 95mins to finish only the first episode of the first season. Wth.
I've got 7 weeks to finish all 5 sesons.
Anyway, daddy bought me a new phone. Thank you thank you thank you.
Motorola Rzr2 V9!!! Sleek and sexayye
I so wanted the maroon but nooooo... not a single shop has it. Got the black one in the end.
Omg, my sis is being a real biatch.
She came home with wendi and angeline to do some project and she had to say SOMETHING with her loud mouth.
I feel like slapping her specs out of her face! What the blehh

What if it's lost behind words we could never find

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

All our lives,we'll be fighting,

for good grades,

to try to mend broken relationships

and to fight for what we really want in life,

what means the most to us.

But the thing is, do we really know what we truly want?

Is what we're fighting for worth all the war, the hatred, the jealousy, the indifference and the competition?

All that hatred kills.

It kills not only our opponent, but ourselves, our very being as well.

No one will ever know if they'll be happy or how happy they'll be in winning the battle until they've fought in it and get the taste of victory themselves.

But when one wins, the other loses. It's never a fair game.

Why why why?

This was one of the things we spoke about during bs today and it really got me thinking:

The more we want something so so so badly, the more we won't get it.

It's only when our obsession slowly dies down and when we realise it's ok to be living without it, we somehow see ourselves getting that very thing we once longed for.

But it all boils down to the same question- Do we still want it? Did we even want it in the first place?

I don't know! It's crazy.

May i have your attention please?

I pledge allegiance to the underclass as your hero at large

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Friday, August 22, 2008

The very long anticipated 7 weeks break is finally here!!! Woohoo!
Have a break, have a kit kat...HAH.
It's gonna be rotting and lazing around all day for the next 49 days man.
Exams are like O-V-E-R, so goodbye to OC, Cell bio and Biostats!
Well, it may exactly be over cuz i might have to retake OC, and i'm quite sure of that. I totally screwed the paper up damn it.
Will totally kill myself if i gotta study that same module again the next sem.
Ah, whatever. I'll just worry about that when the time comes.
Now is just lying around, watch the clouds go by, counting the stars in the sky and THINKING ABOUT MY LIFE.
Omg, for the past don't know how many days, i kinda put my life on hold.
Like studies had to come first, so there was no time to think about stuff.
I gotta get back on track and get my life all sorted out yo! I mean literally.
Anyway, outing with people to vivo and sentosa yesterday was kinda fun but not really fun. Wahahahahaha
Ok, wait! I just contradicted myself but like...
Arghh! Nevermind, as long as i know what i'm talking about. Hah.
Was the first and only victim of grace, cybil and queency to be thrown into the sea! Wth.
2 more days till the end of the olympics. I'm sad :(
No more hot athletes to look at anymore. Teehee.
Hungarian women handball, Nastia Liukin, Shawn Johnson, US women soccer team, Jonathan R, Barbora Spotakova... ... ...
Oh my momma! I'll miss all of that!
I'll just drown myself in my post-olympic withdrawal symptoms. Heh.

I'll give my life to go back to that very split second again.

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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Yayee! I realised i've completely fallen in love with Olympics!!!

I love Nastia Liukin, the gymnast! Whoooo :)

She's h-h-h-h-hawtt man! Her eyes are awesomely stunning. PWEETY PWETTY LADY.

And she's really, utterly, totally, good.

Fly here fly there. Somersault her somersault there.

Omg! I can practically marry her! Wahahaha.

Oh oh oh, and the US team for woman soccer is like awesome too.

They're cool blondes on field!

I'm glued on the tv all day watching the olympics!

That's not good cuz it's the exam period and i'm totally not studying properly.

Oh wells, but 2 papers have passed.

Organic Chem- I know i'm dead. It was as good as leaving the whole paper blank.

Cell Bio- It wasn't too bad, a million times better than OC. The questions were kinda ok, just neutral.

Next will be biostats. It had better not be a killer. Please!

Ok, finally, the last thing i wanna say is:

STOP ASKING ME THE SAME QUESTION WHEN YOU VERY WELL KNOW THE ANSWER!

A 24 Story Love Affair,With Me Down Here & You Up There

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Sunday, August 17, 2008

I got a really bad feeling for OC paper tommorow.
Not that i didn't study cuz i know i did BUT what if i forget eveything that i've learnt and screw the paper up?
And obviously OC is my lousiestestestest subject in this whole wide world.
All i need and want is a pass damn it! A pass!
Plus, i'm not exactly in the right mind to do anything now, what more sit for an exam?
People just don't seem to realise that some things they say just upsets me when it's pretty obvious.
And time and time again they keep saying that same thing.
What on earth is wrong with them?
Best thing is that they know i don't like it, yet they just pretend that nothing's wrong.
One word- DENSE.
Yes, reeedeeeculously dense!!!
Ok fine, maybe i'm the ridiculous one, but this is driving me mad.
I can so see myself being admitted into the mental hospital after the exams.
Good luck to me babehh.

Hold me like you'll never see me again

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Thursday, August 14, 2008

Ok, so what's the deal now?

Lover left for vietnam yesterday and it's gonna be a 2 years thing.

Although she'll be back in December (maybe October), it's gonna be a long long long time waiting.
This means no more shopping, buffet-ing, crapping, bitching, HBO-ing and cam-whoring for the time being.
The thing is there's one less person to listen to me when i rant!

Well, it's not that fair for her too. She kinda waited like 2 years for Dom to ORD this December. But now, after the long wait, she's gone for another 2 years and Dom has to wait for her to come back.

This world is never fair.

I'll wait patiently for this two years to pass.

Omg, time had better fly faster.

BYE BYE LOVER!!! I'LL MISS YOU!

Oh! And I've got bangs again -.-

I don't know what got into me, but I had a sudden urge to do something crazy so i decided to chop my fringe off.

And now I look like a mushyyyroom. Damn!

It gotta be all the stress from studying.

Blame it on Organic Chem.

Sugar we're going down, swinggin

♥ disguised at { 10:00 AM }

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Mrs Chan-Sii Pan Yann is the BOMB. Woowhee

Our favourite Mr Phang Chee Boon who loves har kau and shui mai.

THE BLACK PARADE

Mr Mohar's the best TSO everrrrr!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY PEOPLE!!!

Love the Black Knights and their jets.

They're super duper nice nice. Like they made heart shape in the sky!!!

Omg! Saw it with my own eyes and "it was so freaking cool" (as irfan would always say. Hah)

Even mummy was mesmorised. Too bad, she didn't marry a pilot. Haha.

Anyway, thursday was kinda the last day of school for this sem.

And it was fun in the sun. Played and played...

Had free time after infotech and started playing lame immature primary school games -.-

Last days are always fun. Heh.

And as for life, it's pretty ok i guess. Slightly better than normal, just a teeny weeny bit :)

If you see my girl, tell her i miss her

♥ disguised at { 6:44 PM }

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

So i guess it's back to the matters of the heart.
Just when i thought and hope that something might finally turn out right, i was wrong.
It has always and i mean ALWAYS been wishful thinking on my part.
Like c'mon, since when will anything right happen in my life? Never.
Sometimes it hurts twice as much to know that i'm simply living in denial.
I've yet to accept the very fact that things can never be 100% the same again.
As much as i don't want to, as much as i hate to face it, i'll just have to keep on trying and trying and trying.
I keep myself busy, or at least i try to.
That's cuz i don't want to be reminded of those times.
And i turn away when meomories appear, not letting another drop of tear fall.
Staring at people on the streets, looking blankly right into their faces.
They think i'm looking for trouble, they think i'm being unfriendly.
Just go ahead and think all you want.
Cuz what if... .... ...
Maybe... ... ...
This life just can't go on.

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

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31st July

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSEPHINE LOW!!!

1st August

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE CHAN!!!

2nd August

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE ANDREW!!!

3rd August

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNE PAWANJWOTHY!!!

4th August

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEOWY!!!

You guys have been awesome-woasome! Thank you so so so much for everything. You people have always been there for me forever. Even making me laugh/ smile when i'm having a shitty bad day. I swear i love all of you from the bottom of my heart. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVELIESSS!!!

Sing to me, Once again, In your room, Like old days

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Friday, August 01, 2008

I'm so suppose to be studying now but my brain is gonna explode due to information overload of OC crap. Damn Organic Chem!
Have been studying like a crazy nerd for the past 2 weeks to keep my mind off things and distracted but i guess my hardwork really paid off.

Cell bio prac test wasn't that bad, except for the fact that we kinda cheated a little :/

Bio stats prac was ok i guess. Surprisingly, not a very big problem.

Anyway, Infotech presentation is finally over.

No one has so retake that module cuz everyone passed. That's good.

And it's the end for comm toolkit too, which means no more mr siregar's lessons.

That's NOT good, cuz 85% of what comes out of his mouth is like funny. Heh.

Oh, and his wig is totally awesome. Wahahaha. Love his lessons.

Individual and group oral went pretty well, that's because talking is my forte!

Shittzo. It'll be OC prac test and quiz next week. I know i'm not gonna do well in it.

Obviously, OC is my weakestestestest subject and not a single word in lecture makes sense to me. It's wasting my life damn it.

Semester exams in 2 weeks!!! Wish me luck.

God bless my soul.

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’ it

It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone

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