Monday, April 23, 2007
hey!i've not blogged for the longest time!but at last,im able to blog now during FnN lesson again...Many many things have happened and i blame no-one but only myself for it.the questions keeps floating in my head- why did it happen?how did it happen?what made it happen?i never got the answers.it hurts like crap,i swear it does.the pain just seems to be clinging on so tightly,it refuses to let go!i scream till my throat turn sore and my ears burn from the sound...what's going to happen after this that's the last question i'll ask...
I hear a voice cry out for help
It wakes me in the night, shatters my peace
Desperation in my voice, I feel the sadness
The tears don't stop, I hear a voice crying
Trying to regain innocence lost
Trying to grab hold of my dreams
Trying to be whole again
I hear the screams, I feel the pain
Then I get up and look into the mirror
I notice tear stains
And realizes the voice I've been hearing
Is my own
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Thursday, April 05, 2007
i love my blog song,and so do you...
when will we be able to sing it together again?
i miss that day,i totally miss it.
no words can describe how much i miss you.
where are we at?where's that old us?
everything is fading away...disappearing...
it started of with a rainbow and ended with a storm...
at com lab during FnN again(sry mrs tan...)anyways i'm so glad lover-adel came back to school on tuesday!her presence really made me feel better,much better i must say!i love you lover!!!for now,rong rong(ronda)has been freaking mei mei(natalie)out!hahaha!she almost cried when she went home,she said she feel so molested by ronda's touching and all that crap!ah well,don't care about that ronda la!she is CRAZILY MAD!hahahaha!i gotta go now,jocelyn honaye is here and asking me to shut down and go back to class...byeeee<3
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Monday, April 02, 2007
LIVE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE OH-SO PERFECT BUT SOMETIMES I JUST WONDER WHY THINGS JUST DON'T TURN OUT RIGHT!I JUST NEED IT TO BE RIGHT,NOT PERFECT! I JUST FEEL LIKE GIVING UP ON EVERTHING.I MEAN,WHAT'S THE POINT OF PURSUING SOMETHING YOU WILL NEVER GET?AM I NOT JUST WASTING MY TIME?I DON'T GET HOW THIS WORLD EVER STAY ALIVE WHEN EVERTHING,AND I MEAN EVERYTHING IS FALLING APART!TIME CHANGES EVERYTHING.ONE MINUTE YOU MIGHT THINK YOU'RE THE LUCKIEST PERSON TO HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT,BUT THE NEXT SECOND,EVERYTHING JUST TURNS IT'S BACK ON YOU,LEAVES YOU AND YOU'RE ALL ALONE...ALONE IN THAT DARK CORNER OF YOUR OWN.
I NEVER KNEW HOW THINGS COULD GO SO WRONG
IT'S LIKE I COULD JUST KILL MYSELF BECAUSE OF ALL THE THINGS GOING WRONG,AND ALL THE PEOPLE WALKING OUT OF MY LIFE!
ONE SIDE OF ME IS TELLING ME THAT I NEED TO STAY STRONG AND KEEP HOLDING ON,
BUT THE OTHER SIDE I JUST WANNA BREAK DOWN AND DIE!
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