Tuesday, November 28, 2006

OLA!at last,able to post after a few days away frm the com.not really in the mood to post anything,sry...anw i will try posting real soon after everything's sorted out.



ALL THAT IM FEELING RIGHT NOW...
I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be aloneI'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is
[Chorus:]I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is realI tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
[Chorus]
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourselfI can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
[Chorus]

ps. those eyes are killing...

Saturday, November 25, 2006

oh wellz,just came back from church.went to church for what was suppose to be bible study but some of them didn't turn up.Deborah had camp,cara was still at home,jocelin had tuition and it was just me,jolene,yi en and vera.we talked about everything under the sun and yi en thinks im autistic cuz of my dramatic and mad behaviour.wadeva la.she's such a bully,first she said i gain weight then she talked about my pimples then she went on about my ezema(howeva u spell it) and finally she ended of with me being AUTISTIC!she said the more we bully each other it means that we love each other more.ya right!haha..kidding la.both of us then started playing this beating game,it was fun though at least i was able to take revenge for all the things she said...haha!fine la...tan yi en i know that u will be reading this but im gonna get u for all the things u've said abt me,i'll be seeing u tmr...too bad!haha..kidding la,im not so mean like u.i will be respectful seeing u as an elder sister!love ya!anw back to today...before i went to church i was at badminton training and it was ok though we had to do jump smashes and sprints! those physicals gives me headache!!urghh! that all for today folks!blog soon :D

ps. saw u and tried to say hi,but u barely looked at me...

since im so free...shall put down the list of my loved ones...here it goes...

Friday, November 24, 2006

Thursday, November 23, 2006

ok guess what?went to primary school today to follow my sis to collect her PSLE results,but ended up in the secondary school side to meet kak and dashni.they were suppose to do their project but ended up talking the whole time.anw i was like super duper scared for my sis la.she was like saying that she is gonna fail her science and all.wadeva la...the results was suppose to be out at 12 noon but as usual that sickening bheem was taking yrs to release the results.waited till abt one than me kak and dash walked over to the primary school side to find our parents. and guess what?my sis got a stinking 236 for her PSLE!no kid man.im like super jealous now.3 yrs back my mark was like a pathetic 202...wadeva!and now my sis is like super boastful, everywhere she walks she will be like "make way for the genius"!oh like seriously shut up! went for lunch after that,dint eat much though cuz im like on this stupid diet.i put onlike so much weight after my aussie trip!after lunch we came home,i idled around for abit,talked to kak and lil'am on the phone and its not fair that they got to interview colby during their camp!humphh!! Anw nothing much to do so came to use the com.my life is so BORING!wish i will have some fun for the next 1 month or so before school starts!O levels next yr! btw i just read that stinking blog,i dun believe i went to it but wadeva if i dint read it i wldn't know wad is on ur corrupted mind of urs.say wadeva u want it doesn't matter anymore.so what if u have it?it dun mean anything.ur existance is nothing,just a waste of time.just piss and go to hell!mofo!
ps. i saw grace han yi xiu today!i miss her!i miss everyone(as u can see im so deprived...haha!)


1 month and 4 days;yet so fragile

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

i seriously dont know what is wrong with those ppl.i just dont get y they jhave to bl**dy hell do it?spying on ppl and digging into ppl's privacy is so their life...wad da!i m so gonna get them for this.or maybe i sld not...it will be like soooo childish!wadeva,just do wadeva u guys wanna do,take my life if u want it too if that makes u happy.well,if u think that by doing this u can gain attention then i guess u r so wrong...cuz we shall see who gets screwed first!i really dont know what to say bout u guys.so immature its like u've got nothing better to do!go and study la... since u r so "clever".URGHH!!!just piss off and die!u've got ur sources and i've got mine too!BEWARE! and a little note to u immature freaks:watch ur back cuz u wldn't know who will spy on u or maybe whack u!
other than this nothing much happened,rong rong came to my hse yesterday to use the com and she was like a mad lady...laughing non-stop!well,i guess that is what rong rong is good for right? haha...love ya sexy bitch!

love everyone!muacks! hey to my lover...dun worry bout anything k?i will always be there for u!wadeva happens i will stand by u throughout the whole ordeal and u can count on me for sure!love u!

Sunday, November 19, 2006

im back in singapore!arrived yesterday night,damn tired now after all the packing.miss all the fun back in australia all the shopping at shops like target,big w,thingz,rave,sussangrae,city beach,supre,red dot,king kong and many more that i obviously have forgotten. oh yes especially dark zone was super fun!oh yar,we got to watch how they make roccandy in australia and it totally rocks!i love it,i can practically eat a thousand of it man!anw,adel got confirmed today!so happy for her.and natasha is going up to 4/10 with us!YIPEE.the three lovers reunite once again!i miss the others so much too!dun know how they r doing?gotta catch up some day.for the time being i will just try to figure out how geishas laugh... haha that was what my cousin called me.he said i laugh like a geisha...as if he has seen any.whatever,i shall not be too rude unless i get into trouble and get called annoying again yes? i got to go continue packing my stuff now.
will tag soon!ciao!love all <3

Friday, November 10, 2006

went to the strawberry farm today and got to pick our own strawberries!so fun,but we ended up picking dendilions(something like that) and blowing them.then we went to the chocolate farm and saw how they make chocolates.YUM YUM! went shopping at garden city and southland mall,didn't buy anything though.for dinner we went to macdonalds,not the same as singapore. now is 12a.m and we're gonna to sleep soon.gtg now,before this laptop run out of batt.ciao for now,hope everything is fine back there.miss everyone loadz!

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Its fun here the weather here is like super good abt 19 degrees!miss everyone back in s'pore. went shopping today and got quite a few things.the shopping here is perfect especially those surf shops...i hope everyone back in s'pore is doing fine!i love u guys!

Monday, November 06, 2006

So many things I wanna say
I just cant put it in any other way.
you knoe I love you
but I just can't tell you how much I do.
I miss u still even though I know its wrong
I guess it must be this feeling.. this feeling so strong.
Things are complicated and I know its hard for me and you
but I will lalways be beside u and u know that its true.
at times u seem to be so far
I find myself wanting to be where u are.
if only u could see
how much u really mean to me.
sometimes I really don know what to do
I just wish u knew how much Im loving u.
Im sorrie I hav to feel this way
But Im loving u more and more with each passing day.
I know that this poem isnt really that good
but at least I did try as hard as I could.
so just give me a little credit and I wont ask for more
you know u are the only one that I adore



BRACES//ELECTRIC GUITAR ok,i havn't post for like afew days and realised that i had to post one before i leave tonight. Anyway woke up with this back ache?muscle ache?whatever it is la.its so irritating,i could barely move.maybe its my kidney cuz the pain is like at the both sides of my back just above my ass.Dad and mum said to see the doc but im scared,wad if its not muscle ache or any other aches?wad if it is really my kidney...urghh!scared scared scared!i pray really hard that nothing will happen to me!went to church yesterday,although it was just the talk it was as fun as ever.I LOVE GOD!yea,after church went for lunch and then went home to sleep and then went to centrepoint cuz dad wanted to get some pants from marks and spencers.Went to robinsons at centrepoint and i wanted to get these pair of shoes its onoly 56 bucks!but mom wouldn't allow cuz we're leaving for aussie and there are many other nicer things to buy frm there.
Mom woke us up this morning when i told her not to cuz my flight tonight is at 1am and i bet u i cant sleep up there im the plane so i wanted to sleep through the morning so that i dun really have to force my eyes to close in that cramped up plane!i seriously dunno how to spend that 5 hrs or so up there with absolutely nothing to do except for watching the oh so very-near-to-ur-face tv and eating and felling claustrophobic(however u spell it)!anyway i will be leaving in about 11 hrs time and i will miss everyone one of u(lil,jill,dillie,mike,adel,jocelyn,jo,elaine,kak, nat,pris goh,pris teo,chow and everyone at church!)i love u guys and i will try to get stuff for u or at least gums!


i woke up with the ringing of my phone,i flipped it open and saw ur message.i didn't know hoe to feel or react.u sounded so nice but on the other hand it might just have been sacarsm!but who cares?i dun give a bl***y crap about what you say about me.u have all these small stinking talks behind my back and please stop using ppl to get me!im sry for starting it first but i really regreted for being too brave!i really sldn't have said yes in the first place,what was i thinking at that point of time?hell knows!i guess i was naive but now,i know what im doing and we have NOTHING got to do with each other anymore.those memories,i will leave it all behind,you are now just a stranger to me,i've never met you before and i never will want to!this is the way i want it to be,i don't care about those talks and conferences u have behind my back cuz im not gonna let u bring me down!u're just a wind,a shadow that walks past me...screw you,i hate you!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

im sick,guess i caught the flu frm adel but i will be ok after some rest.and if anyone thinks that im faking my flu u might as well go and die!that fugly b**** i seriously dunno what she got against me she say she has got nothing against me,but please kiss my butt like i will believe u!Whatever la please!i know that i've been a thorn in the flesh to u frm the very beginning but u are much much worse.oh my!what have i gotten myself into?i thought this stupid subject would help me but it seems that i have made a seriously wrong choice,guess u was stupid then!but i swear i will nva show my stupidity again!i won't let u pick on every little mistake i make,and u can take my word for it!u went around complaining abt me so many a times and i didn't take it to heart,even when u told * that i will retain i tried to remain calm u have insulted not only me but my friends too.so many times u've scolded them "stupid" and "idiot"...but look who's talking?sometimes i wonder if u were paid to teach or curse?you show obvious fravouritism,and so what if i m noisy,im the way i m and u gotta live with it!!!too bad!and frm onwards please keep ur comments to urself and i'll keep mine!just leave me alone and let me do my own thing cuz im old enough and know what i m doing!guess this was how u spoilt my day u MORON!


anw besides all this that happened,everything was normally happy! freaking happy to see adel,jill,jo,jocelyn,elaine,mike,dillie,lil'am,kak meera...thanks for making my day guys!love ya<3
btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY DILLIE!!i love you.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

yesterday no one turned up for adel's birthday cuz they cldn't make it,but she still had loads fo fun!went for dinner at serangoon gardens,ate bbq stingray and sotong and some pie thingy.bought chicken wings but was too full to eat them so we decided to "ta-bao" it to nat's hse.after dinner we went to some pet shop to supposedly "look at" pets but adel ended up playing with a chiwawa and a fat dog...haha!they were cute but i dun like small dogs that run ard like nobody business!abt 40 mins passed and we were still there,it was hard getting adel out of there cuz she will like cry like a baby any min she leave those dogs.but at the end we were outta there,thank God!we went to some cafe place and adel got a drink...some funny tasting one with tequila in it.there was this lime thingy and i squarted it too hard and it went into adel's eye...haha!sry lover.anw we then went to another pet shop to get food for her rabbit...RUSTY!after getting those rabbit treats we went to have waffle ice cream!it sux man!big time...but the place was very nice and romantic....hahahahah!ok we forced ourselves to eat it then went to get vicks for adel's block nose at watsons.went to nat's hse after that watched tvand ate the chicken wing i brought there,and then went home.had a lovely time!i bet adel had the best b'day ever...playing with those puppies.hehex!

nothing much happened today school sux.just dun understand y there are extra classes during the hols.so what if the Os are earlier?not like anyone can pay attention(especially GEOG!)had choir after school and it was very very unproductive.hope it gets better!GOLD WITH HONOURS HERE WE COME!(i wish...)